“载着你就像载着阳光，好像到哪里都是晴天”，记得那首歌吗？《星晴》
大一每次回南汇的路上，大桥五线转张南线。路上总是听着Jay的歌，《星晴》《爱在西元前》。

每次听见那时候的歌，都好亲切。无意听到江美琪翻唱的版本，不知不觉走了神。

“看星星一颗两颗三颗四颗连成线”，你想到了什么？看流星雨？对，那一年的流星雨特别繁忙，大冷天里几乎整个基础学院离开了寝室，躺在操场上、大学城的桥下，楼上房间里就放着《星晴》。虽然那晚寝室里唯独一个懒人还在家睡大觉，但是浪漫的气氛一直延续到第二天，同样淹没了我。

 

那一年还播放了《流行花园》。女生们涌入男生在南汇租借的小窝，看着“杉菜”，F4。我们买了熟食、香蕉，可乐，可能还有啤酒，呵呵。

军训第一晚，我们躺在床上，我唱了寝室里第一首歌，什么歌，真忘记了，总之，抛砖引玉。记得每晚金红必定找人打80分，几个人就踊跃参加，我也勉强玩过几把。后来才知道，大家都是为了搞好关系，才佯装感兴趣的：） 打饭，议论着食堂大叔给谁的菜分量最多，收谁的钱最冤，哪个角落又有帅哥美女招摇过市。

 

上课的时候，齐刷刷的一排8个人，没人敢抢。其他班的女生定是对我们“恨之入骨”。上课不干别的，互相传纸条，写得还尽是上海方言，怪不得东北来的赵姐姐上海话突飞猛进。

 

只记得英文课的老师叫大胡，因为有个果汁的牌子叫“大湖”。那句流利口头禅我至今没听明白，似乎是“May be that that”。很巧，现在公司对面的生煎店叫“大壶春”^_^

 

邻床看中的帅哥总被姐妹们瓜分，比如那“四块石头”，比如我家“鹌鹑”。

 

期末考试前，看了一场师兄师姐演的话剧《3W》。哇！惊天地泣鬼神！佩服得我们双眼眨巴眨巴的。觉得他们好“高”啊！没想到毕业前我们寝室三个人同台演了话剧，一个还担任剧社外联部部长，一个成了剧社社长，一个则当了社团联合会长。我们经历了剧社近10年来第一个高峰时期，10校巡演。。。缘分啊！

 

还经常在思想品德课上和其他学院的好友躲在后排吃零食，内容极其丰富，有糖炒栗子，布丁蛋糕，还有一大罐光明特纯牛奶！！！据说那个时候朋友的朋友老觉得我的牛仔裤很紧，第二年木然发现我变得么苗条，纷纷拖他打听我的瘦身秘籍。秘籍没有，只记抄了一个春节的网游，还是新年免费试玩，后来收钱了，就不玩了。看来那个时候我真的挺过分的^_^那一年的照片千万不可以拿出见人！其实么，我就是一瘦子，大一那年纯属意外！

 

星晴是纯净的，记得那时候我们都是单身，8个姐妹不分你我，整天听着邻床传授恋爱秘籍，向往着未来有个什么样的男朋友，不曾拥有时，总是最令人雀跃的。但是，等有了男孩追了，又担心害怕起来。再后来，大家不约而同谈起恋爱，回到寝室，再也没有热气腾腾的感觉了。再后来，开始再高数课上统计人均交往男生的数量。再后来，谈恋爱成了家常便饭......现在，我们都在研究何时结婚了，买什么房子，生什么娃。那些花儿，香味不知飘去何处。

 

周末小聚一下，成为忙碌工作后美味的圣诞大餐。计划明年初组织大家同游南汇。现在睡觉，明天一早赶去徐家汇培训。哎，又把我拉回了现实啊。。。

雨夕夕刷刷的往下滴，打着BB留给我的伞，听者最喜欢的MP3,即使风吹雨打、人群拥挤我也觉得很写意。公司楼下的站牌，在那里伫立了近半小时才上了车。途中，有几个背着麻袋的民工，被司机拒之门外，我想，他们一定很气愤，但这个世界本来就是不公平的。

 

最近好多亲朋好友向我妈妈传言，谁又嫁了个华侨，谁又找了个富家子弟，有房有车送钻石，还问要不要也替我介绍一个。。。是不是那些人穷了一辈子穷疯掉了？

 

女孩子学历知识涵养不重要，只要有脸蛋就有饭吃；女婿有没有本事也无所谓，家里富有才是王道，我越大，如此故事愈演愈烈。

最近好友也经常叹息，羡慕那些命好的女子，诸多无奈。何谓羡慕？上下班有车接送？逛街有人买单？其实，统统都是扯淡。

 

我说我一点也不羡慕。有什么比靠自己的本事换来财富和成就各更欣慰的呢？何况，不同时候的不同需求，我要的完全可以靠自己来实现。作为一步一步一同塌实走过来的朋友们，应该自豪，而不是埋怨。很像好好说服一下朋友，但是找不到恰当的说法。比如：真正能自食其力的女孩是不薛炫耀男人的财力的，或者，嫁给金钱的人是没有能力体会自食其力的快乐的，等等。不是说她们不好，也有为了爱情顺便得到财富的好女孩的，但是每个人都有自己的天地，没什么好计较的。就像，你至少还有资格住在大城市里，但很多人连挤公车得份也没有。

 

我leader说得对，现在好多姑娘找对象，开口就是有房有车，但是，凭什么那么好的男人会看上你呢？要么有财无才，要么有财无貌。

 

一个人有没有钱，对我而言，真的是没有吸引力，不是我太清高，或者葡萄酸甜的问题，而是我对情感的需要太多。每个人都有弱点，帅的有气质，心胸旷阔，有才也都是诱惑力。快乐不是钱可以买得到的，但绝对可以通过个人魅力和胸襟实现。不知道广大女同胞有没有同感。

 

在论坛上听到一首歌很喜欢，就做了space的主题曲，和大家分享。
正如歌词里，从小在一起玩的朋友同学，将来的某一天，必定会走上分差路：

有一天，必定有人会羡慕你的成就；
但是，有一天，你也必定会羡慕他们的简单生活。
I don't know where I'm driving to
but I know I'm getting old.

 

<Homecoming>

it's desert ice outside but this diner has thawed my ears
hot coffee in a clean white mug and a smile when the waitress hears
that I was born in North Carolina
not an hour from her home town
and we used to play the same pizza parlor pinball

 

and there's a glance in time suspended as I wonder how it is
we've been swept up just by circumstance to where the coyote lives
where my days are strips of highway
and she's wiping tables down
holding on and still waiting for that windfall

 

but I've come home
even though I've never had so far to go
I've come home

 

I pay the check and leave the change from a crumpled ten-dollar bill
head across the street where VACANCY is burning in neon still
well the night eats up my body heat
and there's no sign of another
and I find myself slipping down into that black

 

but things are good I've got a lot of followers of my faith
I've got a whole congregation living in my head these days
and I'm preaching from the pulpit
to cries of “Amen brother”
closing my eyes to feel the warmth come back

 

and I've come home
even though I swear I've never been so alone
I've come home

 

I just want to be living as I'm dying
just like everybody here
just want to know my little flicker of time is worthwhile
and I don't know where I'm driving to
but I know I'm getting old
and there's a blessing in every moment every mile

 

thin white terry bars of soap and a couple little plastic cups
old Gideons Bible in the nightstand drawer saying “Go on open up”
well I'll kneel down on the carpet here
though I never was sure of God
think tonight I'll give Him the benefit of the doubt

 

I switch off the lights and imagine that waitress outlined in the bed
her hair falling all around me
I smile and shake my head
well we all write our own endings
and we all have our own scars
but tonight I think I see what it's all about

一进酒店，就后悔为什么没有带电脑。不想忽悠，不想happy，只是躺在床上看星星版韦小宝，大笑背得滚瓜烂熟的台词。被子很热，冬天的房间里，我，开着冷气。

三天被关在“世外桃源”，吃腻了饭菜，听腻了讲话，看腻了西装和MM，笑到腻时，发现已经9号了。

 

Annual meeting, while the first one, during which many old friends sat beside me last year, has not gone away from my mind, the second one is finished. It is already one year! Our target grows by 1 billion. 365 days, gone with he wind. But I'm still waiting.

 

One year between tow meetings seems too short, oen year I wait is really too long. I don't want the meeting, I wanna pick sb up at the airport. Unfortunantly, tomorrow there'll be 5 lucky guys fly back from USA, but the one I wait is not included. I always said, u, the KINK of bad luck.

 

Today, u told my little brother a good news. And he transfered the GOOD NEWS to me when I get out of the taxi. More than 50% posibility, u will be back before new year. Dear dear friends, New Year does NOT mean new year 2007, it means Chinese new year festival...Come on, is it a good news? I tell u, it's just a news. I should be excited if u come back in Dec, or happy if u come back in Jan. But in Feb, it is just a news.

 

I got the message that u r going to write email to me. This is good news. So I cannot wait to open the mail box. When I open it, all the mails are from msn tools, oh, sorry, I found one is not, it is from Ebay. Why ur name is not Ebay.

 

I think I will get ur email tomorrow morning when I get up, or never. U always intend to "do me a favour", and always just do me a favour by mouth. WE have not communicate for 3 days, it is not a long period, much shorter than I have been waiting for u. In the 3 days , phone call is not conveience for u, network is not available for me, except such excuses, the email after I came back is nothing. I wrote mails, always, whenever I want to, even late till midnight, till the next morning. U r busy reading, flying, examing, bla bla bla, then what do u do before sleep? What were u doing when u told my brother, via qq, that u want to send mail to me. See, u have time to type before ur laptop, but have no time to write a few words to me. 

 

I argued to u on this issue several times. Ur explanation is, we can talk via msn everyday. If once u cannot see me, u will do it. I, wait and see. Then, u had the chance that I would leave SHA for 3 days. I set off at 13:00 on 7th, and came back home at 19:00 on 9th, U had 54 hours to prove and persuade me ur principle, but u missed it. Finally, it turns to be my chance to prove, YOU are too LAZY to write me mail!

 

I write in EN, because more than 50% possiility, u stupid lazy bad man will stop reading at the very begining. But dont forget, as long as I lose my temper on u, u will had bad luck! U still have 12 hours to call back my anger, before tomorrow noon.

 

As a conclusion, BB is ZHU TOU SAN.  @8@ 

最近突然觉得时间实在是快，为什么呢，上两个月的杂志还没看完，这个月的已经在沙发上看着我了。再看看墙角堆积如砖的杂志，感叹：又是一年啊！

唯小人与女子难养也。女子的钱太好赚。想想看了几十个月的杂志，似乎每季的流行也差不多，无非几年一个轮回，硬是把一些奇怪的东西追崇为时尚。

商店里令郎满目的衣物，每一年也都极其相似，只是细节稍有变化。有些东西上一季算是折旧处理，今年拿出来就当新品定价。再好看的衣服也是成批量生产，多少人会跟你买一样的衣服啊。即便这样，女人还是毫不犹豫的把他们带回家。

今天看电视记下一句名言：男人喝酒和女人逛街shopping一样，是不需要理由的。买完东西的舒畅感简直是无法比拟，尤其这些东西是用自己赚来的钱买的。虽然一觉起来就会有隐隐的自责，但是，时间倒流，我还是会买。

现在的女人真得很幸福，什么都可以自主。可以读书，工作，赚钱，花钱，不用像以前依靠男人为生；现在的男人和辛苦，一样读书，工作，赚钱，花钱，只不过每样都要比女人高那么一点点才有安全感。

其实这么想的男人和女人都挺累得。为什么不那么想，如果女人也高一点的话，男人的负担会少一点呢，两个人都会更无忧无虑了。